Reading these comments from both of you has me ticking a lot of boxes in my head. I can definitely relate to the overarching theme of being aware of the presence of some kind of feeling of “otherness”- but not having the knowledge or vocabulary to have a proper grasp on it- for both undiagnosed neurodiversity AND unidentified Gender/Queerness Feels. Also, absolutely with you on wanting to be born a boy but never really regarding it as something exceptional (like hold on, that’s not typical of every afab person? whaaa?) because of the option of Tomboyishness and the extent to which young girls’ gender expression can be mutable while still not ringing any alarm bells. It’s sort of funny to be able to look back on it all and be able to tell exactly what was going on.